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Father, I’d madly love
To wipe my tears with her blood
And I pray at the river’s name
And I taste at the river’s face
 
Hey, wait, I need a moment here,
Stay to watch me cleanse away faith
I need not a second name
as I already failed with grace
 
Mother, I’d madly hate
To fear what I mistake
And I feed at the river’s need
And I bleed at the river’s knees
 
Hey, wait, I need a moment here,
Stay to watch me cleanse away faith
I need not a second name
as I already failed with grace

Shout! For the man who’s taken

Shout! For the pity in his hands

Shout! For the blood on this walls

Shout! For supply and demand
 
Well, there ain’t no angels looking down on me
 
Shout! For your fear awakening

Shout! For the stakes must raise

Shout! For the dead will walk here

Shout! For to curse his name
 
Well, there ain’t no angels looking down on me

Momma never wanted me
From the very first day
But Poppa said I was his girl
So that’s why I stayed
He taught me everything I know
While Momma ran away
But he couldn’t help me that rainy day
With that man who got away
 
Oh no...
 
My man was tall and lovin
I heated up just like an oven
He wanted me to live with him
In everlasting sin But Poppa said my girl
Your momma was a tramp
So I told my man no
And that night we broke hands
 
He was my man, my one and only
He hasn’t bothered to telephone me
He was my man, he got away
From Jewanda Faye
 
Bubba, I thought you loved me
But I was wrong right from the start
Cuz you got in your pickup truck that day
And you drove off with my heart
He left me the next mornin
Before the sun had risen
That last I heard about him
He was spending time in prison
 
Everyone help me oh...
 
He was my man, my one and only
He hasn’t bothered to telephone me
He was my man, he got away
From Jewanda Faye He was my man, my one and only
He hasn’t bothered to telephone me
He was my man, he got away
From poor Jewanda Faye
 
I never see the sunshine now
My tears, they flow like rain
You know, even if he rots in prison
I'll never forget his name

Now I am questioning in my somber shoes
Fought the main attraction and fed to better use
Taste my glass of temptation and drink all if I could
Killed my cry with an arrow like a blind man should
 
I have no good story, for my lord to need
She has no addition for my heavy read
I have NO found glory, for my soul to seed
It has no real calling, but real suffering
 
Now to oblige & steer a tired warning
How much can I remember what was yearning
Now to define & shield the sirens flickering
How much do I pretend I had no warning
 
I have no afflictions, for my lord to see
She has no valid cares for my misery
I have NO redemption for my staggering
I walk no troubled road, but stride stumbling

I’m sorry we are alone for reasons I have always known
 
But sweet love & devotion means nothing at all
Cause we tired emotion to feed on other walls
 
I’m sorry that I lied for what I am inside
 
But sweet love & devotion teaches nothing at all
Cause we took the notion to need for our fall
Weep while the demotion keeps us a float
See our hearts an ocean, but we haven’t got a boat
 
No awaken, no history, no mouth taken to separate

Green eyes and lips that abide
Are not the things that I adore
So why hypnotized by your sky and sinking soul
But I’ve never met no need ever like you before
My mind has never been this blind and dumb and filthy and poor
 
Come’on
Let’s here it for the boy whom caved our hearts in
Let’s here it for the noise that still taunts will your head
Let’s here it for the joy that we once believed
 
On my last knee, I’d give my dreams and all you’re asking for
The season when I was alive does not exist anymore
Cause I’ve never met no need at all like you before
My flame has never burned this bold of fright and sickened scorn
 
Come’on
Let’s here it for the boy whom caved our hearts in
Let’s here it for the noise that still taunts will your head
Let’s here is for the joy that we once believed
 
You’re not quite a light, you’re more like my Jesus Christ

I raise my hands, surrenders pose
I choke among it’s highs & lows
I tired where learns my escape
I tithe the means, a perfect mistake
 
And I don’t know if you’ve forgiven me
Though I know where the hell has taken me
And I don’t know if you’ve run from anything
But I know when I see you in everything
 
Take the gun, load it as a friend
Feel the warm metal to my head
The wings I grew, I tore instead
I learn phrase “put to an end”
I said maybe you won’t let me cry for it
I said maybe you won’t let me try again
I said maybe you won’t let me die for it
I said maybe you won’t let me love again
 
And I don’t know if you’ve forgiven me
Though I know where the hell has taken me
And I don’t know if you’ve run from anything
But I know when I see you in everything
 
As I lie in blood here I stare in ways
Only the misleading could stand my face
 
And I don’t know if you’ve forgiven me
Though I know where my end is taking me
And I don’t know if you’ve run from anything
Though I ask you to run from everything I was and am

Will I be dead on the hour that you reached up for my hand?
If I tremble, can I beg you for an easier demand?
 
Yeah, I can talk about forever
Even though I’ve reached the end
Yeah, I can try not to remember
Even though I failed instead
Yeah, I can never hear an answer
Even though I ’m questioning
Yeah, we can walk beside together
Even though I fall again
 
Is my timing that flawed that I stumble in my head,
“If I stay here any longer, I have failed you as a friend?"
 
Yeah, I can talk about forever
Even though I’ve reached the end
Yeah, I can try not to remember
Even though I failed instead
Yeah, I can never hear an answer
Even though I ’m questioning
Yeah, we can walk beside together
Even though I fall again

If I try harder to exchange
The fault of all there is to blame
Will my prisoners let go?
I question what’s more flattering
 
I say pain
I said pain 
 
If I try faster to believe
In all the things all never be
Will I take on a stronger hold?
I question what’s more interesting
 
I say pain
I said pain

("He hath crushed me, he hath made me an empty vessel, he hath swallowed me up like a dragon, he hath filled his belly with my delicates, he hath cast me out.") -Jeremiah 51:34

I know that I tremble when I’m spinning right out of control
I know that I’ll let go when the grasp is too long for my hold
I know the misleading is what’s really misunderstood
But I need with a blank page to devour all of your words, because...
 
...You know you really failed me good!
 
I know that I reckoned for the reasons, I wish for faith
I know that I’ve broken more promises than I have made
I know that the treason may ugly more my detest
But I bleed as the memory for time to erase the best, because...
 
...I know I really failed you good!
 
I know in this anything world we tear others to pieces is that each other or others
I know in this anything world there’s nothing left to reach us
I know in this anything world we tear each other to pieces
I know in this anything world there’s nothing left to reach, because…
 
...We know we really failed it good!
 
I holler

A loss is my way to learn my lesson well
Douse in fire and burn straight to hell
I need exemption from what I know is pain
I’m shy to shatter the glass of many things
 
Held onto him, but I lost my man again
Held with both hands, but I lost a friend instead
Held onto him, but I let go for its end
No longer win a crime forgiven
 
I sleep in dirt, clean off in the morning
I stain in hurt, bleach a whiter warning
I ash desire that is softly falling
I do proceed with no gallant calling
 
Held onto him, but I lost my man again
Held with both hands, but I left him there dead
Held onto him, but I let go for the mend
No longer win a crime forgiven

Oh no

Like a child so impatiently
Like a boy who misses his dad
I would cry until I got my way
I would miss you more than that
 
24 hours, 17 minutes
I spent in your brick apartment
I fell in love and it’s trembling sober
And it’s something I should have said
 
Like a crime so influential
Like a faith that woken all paths
I would steal, cheat, and murder
I would believe in you more than that
 
24 hours, 17 minutes
I spent in your brick apartment
Days thereafter are all colder
And it’s something I should have said
 
And it will leave me a little dead

Hey, Joe, you have a beautiful smile
And I know that it attracts my exile
But so it goes, you have remarkable eyes
And it is so

That I could live on that line
That I could live on that lie
 
Hey, Joe, your aim is stunning and sublime
And I don’t know if your romance is worth a dime
But so it goes, I weep and wail to Fahrenheit
And it is so

I’m gonna take my life tonight
I’m gonna take my life tonight
For you